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Hi everyone!

"I built my own hideout with a big empty box at home, and I put my all stuff in there." V

I don't know if this will really reach someone, but I do it regardless of what happens to it. I am determined to occupy this space between the public and the private, 'cause I want to share my humanity, with the processes and passions that life entails. I just want to play with myself, with my identity. I really want to live, and this is a tool.

What I publish here, I do with a deep and intense listening to myself; and with that, it may not have the slightest relevance to you, how can you find something of me that you can take with you. And anyway, the truth doesn't matter to me. All I want is respect, just as I practice it. I'll just start.

Well, hi, I'm Pía. This is my new intention's blog, where i want to write all the necesitties that i have.

I don't know if this is for ever, or just this period of time with the passion that looks inward. It's the time that you have to dig inside yourself and soak up everything you are discovering/seeing outside that awakens your sleeping soul, that turn on a light, that open a silenced passion, burns a flame of fire that prompts you to go towards you. It is the time when you want to fly through the sky at full speed, with the force of a ship, and nothing matters more than this. Because you can feel alive.

The things that I want to write now, are something confused. But I do for this time like a relief for build from this foundations. And sorry if my english it's not good, but i try to do my best. I'll learn. 

Writte in this blog about my way on this quareantine about reflexions, about fight for the dreams, loves the dance (my way and art, my destiny), loves the passion, look more away than you believe you can do; look our first years with the binairy genre, and what that mean to us really; what is depression exactly; the ancestral medicine-mapuche; the prejudice and how i find new music, the arts, the life, Bangtan. And how all the reflexions that i had, was possible with the company of the love of mi home, my people, and specially: Bangtan Boys.

I love to meet them, i purple them, and I have to make space to recognize and tell what it has meant to me after. I'm A.R.M.Y., and i'm happy to say that, because years ago, that was something impossible, the people just humiliate, make fun and look strong the oriental culpture. And i'm sorry, it's something that covered me, but just i didn't share it, nor inhabit my tastes. I have always loved Asian culture, and that's other topic for other day.

Now, I have new life to grow up. My spirit is moving, and i have to keep up with. I'm reborn, i'm suffering, it's the most painfull process in 25 years, but i'm living this with all the love that i can give to my person. With a deep sincerity that i never give me before. Love all my ways, listening to the things that arise in my soul, and receiving with a new music group all the secrets that was hiding and they are sprouting from me. They accompany me, and support me from a ver special place. I feel the life now how i never before, i have hope. I want to smile, i want to dance, i want to love, i want to laught. I believe on the friendship, in the true company of our hearts. I have never experienced such a vivid taste for something, so real and sincere.

My hope now, is that i can found a place for me too. where i can live, express and be all the things that i can feel now. I want to believe that this is possible.

I'm feel something conffused for this process, and i know that i have to be very strong for this, fight, all the time, go more away... I want to achieve that.

The thing is, if i have to do it alone, how can i do it? If I feel that I can get it but with people who understand me, that we are the similar, what happens if there is no such thing? how can i get it?

Or am I the demanding one?

It make me cry, but my tears are silent. Sometimes I dream of finding a soul like mine so that I can feel that trust inside to empty myself. Because it is sad to admit it, I still haven't been able to.

But hey, not everythig is so bad. If my message is very depressed, sorry, i don't want to demotivate, although i have some depression. But this is not important. The most important thing, is that i have the opportunity to look at myself, gather my pieces, select them, discover new ones, and dream. 'Cause i'm alive, and i know that the life is one, and we have dreams inside us that want to be heard. And the only mission in your life, is to listen and to reach them, fighting every day for reaching them against all the obstacles that this living will put on you.

Now i'm leave this post. I love you, although I don't know you. But I'm with you, connected with all the forces of the universe that allow us to advance. I wish you a lot of luck on your way, a lot of light and a lot of love, and a lot of strength inside you so that you can finally find yourself to walk and achieve your dreams.

Hug you, bless you

Luv,

Pía,
Pie, Piecito, Pita

Ponyo